I grew up with a brother who loved all things space and NASA. He can still rattle off the names of all the astronauts of the 1960s and give you the blow-by-blow on how the lunar missions unfolded. We adored our space-themed Lego sets, launching our own missions under the shady bushes in the back yard. We drank the astronaut's Tang orange breakfast drink and carried NASA-inspired "Space Food Sticks" in our school lunch boxes. Since I was born the same year as the moon landing, it feels like my whole childhood had a starry backdrop of space stories.
In the early 1980s, my brother was fascinated by NASA's next chapter -- the shuttle program. Thanks to him, I understood a little bit about what I was seeing on June 18, 1983 when I had the opportunity to watch an actual launch. A silent little flame appeared in the distance going up, up, up into the sky. The Challenger was rising fast by the time the roar of the launch rolled in across the river. Even from a few miles away, it was really something. And I had the chance to cheer on Sally Ride as she became the first American woman to reach space.
I'll never forget the day in 1986 when the Challenger disaster occurred, killing all seven aboard. Adventurous and smiling school teacher Christa McAulliff and the crew vanished forever. This time, the silent flame on the horizon became an arching column of smoke. I remember feeling my heart lurch when I saw it on a television screen, knowing how it should have looked going straight up into the blue. The stuff of dreams to the stuff of nightmares. Unfathomable, yet then it happened once more. The Columbia broke apart in 2003 and another seven were lost.
I think we've all heard about the concept of everyone being just six degrees of separation from each other. Sometimes it is shorter. Not long after the Columbia went down, I ran into a friend and discovered she was in grief. One of her best friends died -- on the Columbia. On that day in 2003, she was with the small group of family and friends at Kennedy Space Center waiting for the Columbia to touch down. It was only when the countdown clock reached zero without a shuttle appearing that they began to wonder if something might be wrong. Moments later, cell phones starting ringing with news that the officials hadn't yet had the chance to deliver.
But then my friend started talking about Captain David Brown. He was an excellent flight surgeon for the Navy and a crackerjack aviator. Yet despite his huge accomplishments, he was also a warm and funny guy. He'd once even tried his hand at being a circus acrobat. As she talked, he seemed very real to me even though I'd never met him. The other lost astronauts somehow seemed more real too. You don't get to be a shuttle astronaut (even an honorary one like McAulliff) without a lot of hard work putting you at the top of the ladder, and I can only imagine part of what fueled their success was a lot of dreaming. I'm so impressed that their dreams became the stuff of reality. So here's a salute to the fourteen that were lost. Godspeed, Heroes.
The lost Challenger and Columbia flights are what we perhaps remember most from the 135 shuttle launches. And we shouldn't forget. At the same time, the shuttle made great advances in science possible and furthered space exploration. All the shuttle astronauts worked hard for that -- some even died for it. I for one am a little sad to know the landing of the Atlantis on July 21, 2011 is the end of an era. When Eli is old enough to understand, I'll tell him about that chapter in his nation's history.
(Click here to read more about David Brown.)

I hope starry daydreams are ahead for you, Little Guy.

(Many thanks to Rex and Janet for Eli's spiffy astronaut shirt! Local mama and papa friends, if you have a little space enthusiast in your life, you can visit the tiny space shuttle at the Westfield-Solano Mall in Fairfield.)